I as well wanna use some of my free time to listen up to the popular music I should have listened to. You know, just to get a basic education. So that next time when somebody talks about the Rolling Stones, I would know what they’re about and what kind of music they have played and have listened to a couple of their hits. I am in the process of getting myself acquainted with all the classical music (hint: you actually have to say concert music) already but I still need to know of a lot of the music of the 20th century. Now, I would have to make a list of those most important bands and artist and perhaps get some of their songs. Or perhaps use YouTube. Although I would be better off using some kind of lectures or all-in-one-place type of thing if I could find one. Any ideas? For now, I have this tiny list which I compiled from a page in Yahoo answers, listening the most famous music:

1940s- Bill Monroe, Lester Flatt, Glenn Miller
1950s- Elvis Presley, Bill Haley and the Comets, Carl Perkins, Guy Mitchell, Merle Haggard
1960s- The Beatles, Beach Boys, The WHO, Vichie Walens
1970s- Led Zeppelin, The Rolling Stones, Pink Floyd, Black Sabbath, Queen, Alice Cooper, Earth Wind Fire, KISS, The Bee Gees
1980s- Michal Jackson, Bon Jovi, Madonna, Def Leppard, Motley Crue, Duran Duran, U2
1990s- Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Alice in Chains, New Kids on the Block
2000s- Limp Biskit, Nsync, Robbie Williams

Now, I probably do need quite some additions to the list (any suggestions?). And also I could start worrying where to get all this music from. Oh, a lecture series would be so much better.

Somehow for the last few days I have been feeling like going to Paris. I kind of have a trip quasi-planned later this year but that’s late. Anyway.

I have quite a few things planned for the summer. Apart from other things which I am not going to discuss here, I have two other goals.

1. Make your way with CPC and then make the move to being a vendor.
2. Catch up with quite some classical literature.

Now, #1 has been discussed already. I am doing so-so, I can see progress and opportunity and I’ll be taking it. Now, this could be just another over-statement. Yet, focus is the key here and now I have it. That. Taking action is the second key. I have some of it too. Fate seems to be showing me that I’m heading in the right direction (nah, I don’t really believe in fate) and I’ll handle this one. Alright.

Books are more interesting. I am likely to still have some free time during the beginning of the summer and I want to read some literature. I have not read that much. Okay, I could put a tick on The Count of Monte Cristo but there is just a lot of literature like that which rocks and that should be read by an average educated person a superior guy which I am (sorry for the partially unpremeditated expression of my superiority-complex). I don’t know, I should make a list. Or at least I should make a list with a few books in advance. Currently I am going to jump on Der schwarze Obelisk by Remarque. I know, it’s not really so much classical but I have gotten a few at least one recommendations. Then I’m thinking of something of Dostojevskij. Or perhaps Tolstoy. In any case, that is just gonna be a warm-up. But let me get the other books I read now dealt with, first.

P.S. Now I have even found a round-trip flight to Paris for €220. That’s still quite much. Oh, I guess some things have to wait. A bit. Then I’ll be able to reward myself with stuff, etc. (I hate to be so ambiguous and post-pone things but I am afraid that’s how it is supposed to be now).

I just have to make this quick. If you don’t know how to start writing, just start, they say. I was away (abroad) for a few days in a few consecutive weeks and I did just well without the Internet. I got back just to check stuff but it took me like an hour or so. If I can just check my e-mail and so on in an hour every week, why the hell do I keep doing that for an hour every day

?On PPC: I still can’t do it. I am gettin’ no success so far and it’s startin’ to get depressing. It’s like I have two kinds of campaigns so far a) ones that simply lose money b) ones that get no views and no clicks. Seriously. Also it really takes ahelluvalot of time to start a campaign. Worst of all, I am forced to use the Internet connection in my university which is totally screwed up and prohibits like half the sites I am using and doesn’t even allow me to use FTP to upload files. Progress is non-existent. Screw that. On the positive side, still, I am positive pretty soon I’ll be doing this for a living, haha. If you act, you can’t fail.

I still lack self-discipline a lot.I also noticed I already have some of my previous needs met but then I get new needs to replace them and the overall depressed-about-not-knowing-what-the-hell-i-want circle kicks i again. 

All states are temporary.

Here - I like his writing style. And thoughts. But it’s the style that makes it more interesting. He uses a lot of short sentences. I have noticed this in a somebody else’s writing style which I also liked. I think I have had begun to use short sentences too. I think I could duplicate it just by applying the short sentences thing. He is also jumping from one idea to another. Another thing I like.

I have found that blog post by listening to a song and searching in Google for one line of the lyrics. It’s weird, because the title also has the word “lucid dreams” in it. I wonder if I had found out about lucid dreams if I hadn’t watched a TV program about dreams and I hadn’t talked to one girl about them and if she hadn’t told me about lucid dreaming. I wonder.

As you think of it, my whole life could have changed because of that conversation. Not only that I found out about lucid dreaming. By searching for information about it, I found some material and people, which, in turn, perhaps lead me to other material and people which lead me to other people and other material and so on until the point in time where I am at the present moment.

I find that I very often get the feeling as if I was missing out on many things. Sure, I am missing out on mundane things that I could be doing too but I’m talking about missing out overall. People in the other part of the world are having fun and I could be there. People are studying at such or such place and I could be there. People travel and I could be there. Mostly, they are having a good time and I am not there and there are so many opportunities that I lose and that keep me from the ultimate experience. That’s what I call missing out in this sence. Anyway.

All of this is not what I wanted to write. It’s not! The part of the content of my post that corresponds to the topic has not even started yet. Here the most important part begins.

Some people want to get a house and live there and go on vacations a few times a year or whatever. I don’t think that would suit me. Why settle in one place? Days become all the same and the commonness just begins wearing one out.

Now, about living in places. Rent is not very expensive these times. You can get a really good new apartment for yourself for rent here for about $800 a month. In Japan it could cost as much as $1500 a month (yet, they have all kinds of gift money and deposit money so yo end up paying like 6 times that but still). And you would be living in Tokyo.

I’m not saying you should settle there. Imagine this. You could live 6 months in Tokyo (or just travel around during that time), go to China, Russia, France, Germany, USA, Australia, New Zealand (heard it is really cool there), finally, South Africa or many other countries. You just have to make more than $2,000 a month (at some places it’s way lower, though) for the rent and a bit more for other stuff. In any case, at the worst case scenario, I am pretty sure you wouldn’t need that much more, than, say, $4,000 a month to live off anywhere in the world (and I am not planning the worst case scenario).

Yet, getting yourself a house costs a lot more. Say, living here, if I was to pay the whole rent myself (and not just my cut), I could still live here for 50 years paying the rent until it would even out with the current price of the apartment (I think). Of course, I didn’t count inflation and also the fact that real estate prices go up makes it a better investment to get your own apartment and so on but that’s not the main thing.

What I’m saying is that, should you not have enough money to buy an apartment right away, why not rent it and change your living place often? That way you get to explore things…

Long time ago I watched some TV program, movie or whatnot about playing Tennis and one quote has stuck:

 When I start thinking, I know I have lost.

Wish I could use it for many things in life… 

The Internet at my room broke so I’m now sitting in a shopping center (centre, for those of you British-English fans…) or should I call it a shopping mall with my laptop on my lap and writing this. It’s funny because even being Internet-deprived normally and being here for business-matters, I couldn’t resist wasting some time “just browsing”. Whatever. I now have a plan, I have chosen a niche, haven’t done any niche research whatsoever and I now have registered a domain name. I am on the verge of setting up my mySQL settings for the new site now. Then, only design is left. I’m quite bad at design but I’ll be getting some examples to work on so that I’d have a working copy of the page to just upload to the server early tomorrow and begin phrase 2. Phase 2 is a lot of work but it’s okay since I’m going for my dream (I coined that phrase from someone). Well, one of my dreams, sorta.What else what else? I’m going to make it this time so I have to start thinking about other stuff too. There is not THAT much stuff going on but there will soon be other stuff to discuss. Currently, I feel like I should be keeping my focus on one thing which I will. So, okay, as for now, I have to do some other steps for the design preparation needed.As the Japanese say, ganbarimasu!

I finally learned how to tie a tie. I remember I had previously tried before but I was missing some part of the process and couldn’t tie it properly. Now, I decided, I would do it untill I finally succeed… I decided I would learn to tie one before the New Year. Took me just an hour!..  haha… and now I can do it using this Double Windsor knot or a single Windsor knot… It all came down easily when I stopped learning the first one and finally figured out how to do the latter first. By all means, these guys that make those videos have it all figured out and they just tie their ties quickly not thinking about how it might be hard to pick up for the people watching. Here is a good lesson - always think about your audience and break it so that they (and not you) can understand it.

I also was in the theatre today. I don’t visit theatres. Now I did and it was fun. Makes you wonder about all those things in life you never do that could be so great to do. I’m living on the idea that I will do them later. But when is later? For most people, there is no later. I guess you have to put later forward in life…

I am glad because I got around to do some of the things I was putting off in the last few days. Here is another lesson - taking action makes you happy. For the moment, at least. Finally, taking action enliberates. There is no excuse to not taking action and yet I have wasted so much time. Whatever, as says Anthony Robbins, $past != $future (except this is put in a programmer kinda way… I am NOT a programmer, bah).

Resolutions, yeah. Now I am going to pull out my journal and write my New Year resolution. Someone said that New Year resolutions are just vane commerical stuff but now I am thinking of them as of a rather good chance to put your goals into places. The difference between most resolutions and mine, though, is that I am planning to follow through (well, that, and the goals differ too, I guess).  I am going to have a good hour to think of everything and write it down.

I am not gonna wish happy New Year. Everybody does that. Enough cheesy stuff. And also, wishes are empty. Actions count.

Okay, it’s not abroad, I’m as usually going to the other city (I’d like to go abroad too, as for that matter). I wanna have tried all kinds of things, all kinds of blogging included so I am blogging, :)

So, my bus was late by 5 minutes today and I missed the train by one minute as a result (hey, I know the schedule is tight but it’s better to have 4 minutes than 34 of waiting-time). So I jumped on a microbus (whatever that’s called). It’s cheaper than a bus plus it goes faster and people sitting besides are sometimes very keen on socializing since the trip is long and so on (whether that comes as a benefit or a downside, lol). But now this is fucking crammed and I am barely able to read my laptop screen since it’s like 4 inches away from my head (that’s the furthest it can go) and stuff. And I missed a …. well, whatever, you’re probably pretty bored reading this already.

What I wanted to also write about to make this more meaningful is thinking. The day before yesteday it was cold and I was late or something (don’t remember the exact circumstances) and I caught myself swearing and thinking how I’m not gonna be able to make it to somewhere or something because everything sucks. But when I caught myself, it struck me in some interesting way. Why would I be thinking negatively? I have heard quite some stuff about how good it is to be optimistic but it seems I haden’t applied that now. So now I kinda try to modify my thoughts and switch to the positive side of thinking whenever I catch myself in a bad situation thinking badly. Some kind of mini positive-thinking experiemnt.

And it seems it’s a bit taugh so far. But still. Plus I seem to be on the drive today from the afternoon (dunno if that’s related, maybe that’s because I’m feeling a bit of headache that might be from the cold weather, but the headache would work in the opposite way, huh?). Oh, well, so to say, whatever it is, I must learn to maintain + enhance this state and I’m halfway done. :)

Now I’ll shut down the laptop because my eyes hurt already. And I need to rest. I have work to do in the weekend.

I’m a bit angry on myself today and I don’t have much to do (plus my head hurts) so I’ll do a write-up on that.

So, I set my alarm early in the morning to go to a lecture today. I wake up, feeling all sleepy, and in a rush looking for my book and not wanting to be late to a bus, I run and accidently hit my head to a low-hanginh TV on a wall. Ouch.

I had to clean the wound with water and I left for the university early in the morning anyway. So, I catch another bus just to stop near a farmacy to get a patch for my head. Anyway, then I catch another bus, go to the university, eat and being late about 30 minutes, I head to the lecture. I get near the door and a realization strikes me - “There is no first lecture in Mondays”. Fuck.

I could just have looked at the schedule and would have seen that there is no lecture. No, now I didn’t and now I’d be feeling like I could drop off anytime except that my head damn hurts. Well, shit happens, I guess.

On a different note, it seems we’ve got a sale. Very cool. Project $200 shows the first tokens of working.

Have you ever tried going by train in the day at a foggy weather, having your laptop with you and using a wireless Internet connection to blog and Skype. Duh, that’s what I am doing right now.

It’s quite interesting as you think about it, because we are moving at about 50mph, yet the Internet is working just fine (well, it’s a bit slow, but tolerable).

Ok, that’s it. I was actually into blogging some stuff about the progress in the things I am doing but I am too much into Skype right now so I’ll stop. Bye.