I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong.

Bertrand Russell

Okay, it’s not abroad, I’m as usually going to the other city (I’d like to go abroad too, as for that matter). I wanna have tried all kinds of things, all kinds of blogging included so I am blogging, :)

So, my bus was late by 5 minutes today and I missed the train by one minute as a result (hey, I know the schedule is tight but it’s better to have 4 minutes than 34 of waiting-time). So I jumped on a microbus (whatever that’s called). It’s cheaper than a bus plus it goes faster and people sitting besides are sometimes very keen on socializing since the trip is long and so on (whether that comes as a benefit or a downside, lol). But now this is fucking crammed and I am barely able to read my laptop screen since it’s like 4 inches away from my head (that’s the furthest it can go) and stuff. And I missed a …. well, whatever, you’re probably pretty bored reading this already.

What I wanted to also write about to make this more meaningful is thinking. The day before yesteday it was cold and I was late or something (don’t remember the exact circumstances) and I caught myself swearing and thinking how I’m not gonna be able to make it to somewhere or something because everything sucks. But when I caught myself, it struck me in some interesting way. Why would I be thinking negatively? I have heard quite some stuff about how good it is to be optimistic but it seems I haden’t applied that now. So now I kinda try to modify my thoughts and switch to the positive side of thinking whenever I catch myself in a bad situation thinking badly. Some kind of mini positive-thinking experiemnt.

And it seems it’s a bit taugh so far. But still. Plus I seem to be on the drive today from the afternoon (dunno if that’s related, maybe that’s because I’m feeling a bit of headache that might be from the cold weather, but the headache would work in the opposite way, huh?). Oh, well, so to say, whatever it is, I must learn to maintain + enhance this state and I’m halfway done. :)

Now I’ll shut down the laptop because my eyes hurt already. And I need to rest. I have work to do in the weekend.

I’m a bit angry on myself today and I don’t have much to do (plus my head hurts) so I’ll do a write-up on that.

So, I set my alarm early in the morning to go to a lecture today. I wake up, feeling all sleepy, and in a rush looking for my book and not wanting to be late to a bus, I run and accidently hit my head to a low-hanginh TV on a wall. Ouch.

I had to clean the wound with water and I left for the university early in the morning anyway. So, I catch another bus just to stop near a farmacy to get a patch for my head. Anyway, then I catch another bus, go to the university, eat and being late about 30 minutes, I head to the lecture. I get near the door and a realization strikes me - “There is no first lecture in Mondays”. Fuck.

I could just have looked at the schedule and would have seen that there is no lecture. No, now I didn’t and now I’d be feeling like I could drop off anytime except that my head damn hurts. Well, shit happens, I guess.

On a different note, it seems we’ve got a sale. Very cool. Project $200 shows the first tokens of working.

I was, once again, browsing these making money online blogs to get me a bit less bored (it’s damn cold outside!) and I found this entry re-posting something from another blog stating that:

Experts say that if you do something for 20 days straight you will then form a new habit into your daily routine.

I was wondering, could it be true to really make a habit? Is there something to the number in this case, or is it just another number somebody has pulled out of his ass?

That looks quite interesting, because if we can really form habits in only 20 days, we could add a lot of new habits. It’s a matter of discipline now but I wonder how 20 days is related to that…

Have you ever tried going by train in the day at a foggy weather, having your laptop with you and using a wireless Internet connection to blog and Skype. Duh, that’s what I am doing right now.

It’s quite interesting as you think about it, because we are moving at about 50mph, yet the Internet is working just fine (well, it’s a bit slow, but tolerable).

Ok, that’s it. I was actually into blogging some stuff about the progress in the things I am doing but I am too much into Skype right now so I’ll stop. Bye.

Gary Halbert said titles are the most important part of a copy. I was just thinking… well, why the hell am I talking about Gary Halbert? Out of those thousands and perhaps millions of people, I listened to some of his speech and he became kind of an authority in copywriting in my perspective. So, Gary Halbert said that, so that must be so. In consequent, people tend to have all kinds of authorities. Authorities, that lead people into doing stuff because “they know”. But, I was thinking, can there really be authorities? Especially, with say social sciences. Can somebody accurately predict Economics? Can somebody know exactly how the market reacts to certain things. Or, say, psychological actions of people? In the modern world, it goes like “You must do exactly this and that and that” or “You must change that part and do that” etc. But how much sense does that make? What if we’re doing all that just trying to please somebody? They say, you should always do what you love to do. But can you actually be doing that all the time? Should we listen to ourselves or some bullshit authority? Perhaps neither?

On a different note, I’m sitting in a new place and some file is downloading and so I was bored so I thought I would blog something. Yeah, the place, by the way, is where I would live for some time. Well, the general rule is, I’d stay around for some time and see if this sticks or not, and, hopefully, if it does, I’d live here more. But that’s offtopic. Wait, no, nothing is offtopic on this blog. In terms of this blog, I think I should stop posting crap here and just post the good stuff. Or, maybe nothing at all. Maybe I don’t need a blog at all. I dunno yet.

Okay, so, what else. Hope you don’t mind that rant on the top. I was thinking what’s on top of my head and blogging it out, etc and so it might come out boring. Oh, well, in fact, I don’t care if you think this is boring or not. Not in this case. But I have to improve my writing anyway. Eh, this is complicated.

P.S. The title of this article is supposed to grab your eye so it’s an oxymoron (or something).

P.P.S. And yeah, I know I’m crazy (the voices in my head disagree, though). Just kiddin’..

Is am temporary internet connection deprived so when I wanted to post something onto this blog yesterday, I was not really able to. I wrote it on my mobile phone but now it looks like the things I had written are put in a way that is just too silly.

The main idea is, recently I have been through quite a fair amount of stuff. That’s a change of my living-place, and a change of the environment. And I met many new people (some are not tottaly new, other are). Sometimes at some points I get depressed because stuff seems to be going wrong or some things appear not to be as I had expected. Sometimes, perhaps, it’s just a nostalgy that’s causing the depression.

So, I was walking back from the debates club yesterday (I registered to the club - debates are cool - even though I have never done them oficially before… but they are … and I met a few interesting people there already…). I realized that stuff is still moving to the positive side. Even though it’s slow, there is some improvement.

This is the excerpt of the text I have written then to my phone:

It just seams that whatever we are doing even though the circumstances are not always okay, it comes out all good in the end. So cool.

That realization made my day back then.

And I hope it’s just the beginning…

Sorry, this post won’t probably have much interest to you because it will only be me rambling. In fact, even though I am writing that, I still think my posts are valuable. Hell, I don’t even think I’ll publish this post. Even though now I think I will. Whatever.

As you have noticed, my blog is actually very much my blog and it’s just me rambling instead of me writing important stuff. Even when I sometimes find some cool stuff, very rearly I write it here. And the blog is not even niche-related so it goes about all topics. And these are the main reasons why I have 2 readers at my RSS subscription list.

I thought I wanted to revive it. But why? Why the hell do I need a blog like that? Business-wise? It’s not like the untargeted blog itself can earn me anything. Do I make it niche-targeted? Nah. If I was going to do that, I’d just start another blog. In general, blogs are not good means to do business. Seriously. Most bloggers make nowhere near much. And I’m talking about niche-targeted blogs. Ah. Other reasons? Nah.

But that is actually not what I wanted to talk about anyway. The first thing is, remember this post? Did I do much? I wasted it. Business-wise, I haven’t done much for sure. Fun-wise, ok, a bit. Not anywhere near as much as I would have liked to. Now, I’m moving to a different place where I would live like 65 percent of my time. And with it I’d be expecting stuff would be going to change. But is it?

Another thing is, most of the people just go along not thinking about what’s gonna come up next. I do think. Quite a lot, recently. But I’m not getting any damn results so far whatsoever, so what’s the point?

I still think stuff is gonna change to the best. Well, there is no reason why it shouldn’t. But now it’s still much of a problem.

Getting action-oriented. That’s what I need want to do. But I know I want that, it seems like I do it, but in the end I look back at it and I see it as just time-wasted. Gotta break up this crap.

And anyway. I’ll do something important about it. Soon.

P.S. Told ya.

It’s a bit late here already and I am tired and all but I wanted to talk about one thing here. The thing is, I waste my time. All the time.

I pick any topic, when I read stuff online and offline how to do it. Not simply I do read, I read to ridiculous amounts. This was not the case like 4 years ago and I seemed to be more action oriented then. Maybe I am just idealising myself, though. (Probably I am, because things still sucked back then). In any case, for example, take this website I wanted to make, which I won’t go into details about. I read about this idea on another site. I then still kept reading. Later I carried on to another stuff and now I got back to reading. This has taken me 3 months already and I am still in the zero-phrase.

That’s what I don’t like about it. So, here is the plan I have come up with (maybe I can start using it for internet marketing too after the 30 day challenge):

Pick up something, read about it and then stop. Select a goal which you want to achieve and till you achieve that goal, don’t you even dare reading anything on the topic. Nada. Not a single line.

I’m now willing to really put this into practice. All the good things in this life are about acting and not about thinking/reading/whatever about them. That’s so simple and yet I seem to be having all the problems in the world putting this into my head. I will change that.

I have two new ideas for websites. And one old idea that I am willing to revive.  I had  completely created a website with a very simple idea that could still take off like 3 years ago. I then did not launch the site, however. And then, though the site itself was old, it was clean and nice. I lost the code somewhere but I might get it back if I search my archives well. The bad thing is, I saw a very similar project somewhere. Anyway, I’m currently keen on finally making that project and releasing it.

Also there is some other stuff which is not hard to do but it needs quite some brainstorming and archive-reviewing for the key ideas in the content. I guess that website could still make a difference. Finally, I’m really willing to renew one of my sites that currently blow.

In any case, sorry for being so vague about stuff yet. I just kinda needed to note things down so that I could jump on then. Whatever it is, I’m going to make something big very soon.

And one thing that I have been doing for some time already - write your ideas on paper. Doesn’t matter if it’s easy or hard to do, if you come up with something, just write it down. I have been into doing this and I had like 20 crazy ideas on a piece of paper (a piece of paper, which I have lost)… Anyway, just a quick tip - write your ideas  down.